Board Exam, illness and the Fight

My internals ended and we started chatting and talking again but then after few days her board exams got started but she managed her time very well unlike me who never studied and only talked, She studied and even talked with me. What i did was the simplest thing just prayed to God that she scores good marks so that she can come to Delhi for graduation and we can be together but I was never been able to wish her before her exams. Saddest part was i always wanted to wish but was helpless. Reason oh i think you forgot, Its the same old reason, "i don't have STD in my mobile" and "didn't had the guts to call on her lane line from somewhere" because the first thought that came in my mind was "what if she gets into trouble", "what if she get scolded, so I decided not to call her & hence was not able to wish her all throughout her Board Examination. I was sad for that actually very sad because i was not with her when she needed me the most, when she needed my motivation and confident to go ahead and so was she. She was very sad about this and equally angry as well but she didn't realise it was not actually my fault. During the examination she got ill and was taken to Doctor she was really serious, problem in her stomach.

Oh Shit, what happened to her, what will happen now, when will she come back and call and tell what the doctor said, when will she be fine, all the thoughts just ran into my mind and i got mad thinking what may be happening there.

She called up next day and told me she has problem in stomach and its very serious and if she has another pain in stomach she would be admitted to Hospital....

Oh my jaan, don't worry you will be fine nothing will happen to you I will pray for your well-being.

She was very tensed about it. She really wanted to get well so that she can study and get good marks and then come to Delhi, and her illness was not at all helping the cause. But somehow she managed to study and give exam. but i was not able to talk to her all these days.

This made her more angry because she felt that i didn't care for her well-being but it wasn't true, I went to temple everyday to pray for her good health and marks. then after her last exam got over she called me that day we talked nicely but one night after that we met online and she blasted at me saying you don't care for me you didn't even call me to say good luck and also when I was ill you had no care to call and ask how was I?

I knew she is not right but she is not wrong as well :-( If I would have shown little guts I would have talked to her and would have been able to be with her. But any ways I accepted my mistake but we fought a lot that day and finally we patch up saying love you to each other.....

All was fine till I logged into her account and read her chat with Rahul in which he said I will be there if you have a break-up don't worry. I took it wrongly and didn't gave a damn to read what was it all about and broke on Rahul and Shreya. Finally the result was All was okay between me and Shreya but i had a major fight with Rahul. I lost a friend in Rahul and with him I lost Vidya, Divya, Manoj and many more. One wrong step and I lost so many people from my life. But I didn't realise it at that point as though I lost them I had Shreya with me whom I loved alot and who I knew will also be with me. :-) :-D