My External exam & she was alone

Oh well.....

First her board exam then a fight......i guess that's not what the doctor ordered for....any ways external exams started soon after her board exams got over.......Bad luck......because all these days I never studied and with low attendance bad internal marks. I guess it was time to study now.

But guess what! The only thing in my mind all the time was When will i talk to Shreya, when is she going to call me up & when will i hear her beautiful cute voice.....

Oh didn't I tell you her voice is really cute and its just like the voice of a baby. Well, Shreya always take it wrongly God knows why she do, because its a big compliment i guess because it means you cute like a baby. Well she knows she is any ways cute.

But with my first exam going pretty bad, I finally decided to study and thus resulting in ignoring her. Awww i felt so bad for that but what can I do about it, I other fail if i don't study and who will love the guy who just failed in First Year. She used to call me every day and i used to tell her i am studying will talk to you later, but my heart said talk to her. I got so much confused that didn't study for my Accounts exam and that was the worst paper I did so far.

While coming back from college I was thinking what i got by not talking to her. I didn't do well in exam any ways and was not able to talk to her. I felt bad for not talking to her and so did she, now i realised that she must have been alone all this time and thought of saying a sorry when i talk to her next time.

With these thoughts in mind i took the next bus home and got the same old question from my mom "beta how was your exam". With full honesty towards the Liar gang I said " mummy bahot acchhaa hua". My mom was like " humesha hi acchhaa hota hai bas marks nahi aate". I thought in mind "well that's actually true because i rarely study". Any ways i had my food and then planned to go to sleep so If shreya calls at night I will be able to talk to her all night :-)

Once I woke up, first thing I did was see my phone if she has called or left any message. I went online to check if she was there or has left a scrap on Orkut. but there was nothing like it.

Well I was thinking about why she is not calling me, But at night i got my answer when she finally called up. She was angry with me for not talking for past 2-3 days. Oh i knew i have hurt my baby again by not talking to her and leaving her alone. But it was again not actually my fault. It was a case where the circumstances are not right and what you do goes wrong. Any ways going forward the first thing i did was what every boyfriend does "Sorry Sorry sorry Sorry" but unlike most of the sorry that i would have said to people these were the ones that i really meant to say. F i was able to make her happy and cool down her anger & we were talking whole night. I was so happy after talking to her that in that happiness I did the Correlation ( statistics ) next morning and then waited for her to call me again but then came the bad news my brother Vivek is coming back to Delhi and i realised now it will be difficult for me and Shreya to communicate for next few days. She like always called me up and i told her that my brother is in Delhi so i wont be able to talk to you for few days. While saying this i realised that i am just leaving her alone again and breaking the promise i made last night. Oh did i forgot to tell you that every boy friend has to Promise that he won't repeat the mistake again with the 100's of sorry. I know she must have felt very bad and will be alone and that got to my mind and I no longer studied for the exam next 2 days. then one day before the exam i finally took out my books to study, but as always without talking to her it was impossible for me to concentrate on studying any more. So I my preparation for this exam was bad and next day when i got the question paper i realised the only topic i did nicely ( correlation: obviously we talked before that, that's why) was not there in question paper. May be the guy who made this knew i am only doing this topic :-( oh well you can guess how the exam would have gone, any ways next day my bro left and Shreya called up and was very sad. I knew she will be sad but this much I never thought.

Oh my baby what happened to you?

She said, " you don't even talk to me Vivaan, and just leave me alone as if I am no one to you".

I was already sad about my exam and not talking to her and her sadness made me feel it more. I tried explaining it to her but i guess its the difficult thing to make someone understand that it was not your fault when you know it was actually your fault. But I guess I was becoming good to it. She finally felt better and said "I love you". Oh I was dying to hear it for past few days. The three golden words that has made my life turn around.

Well for rest of the exams I finally cleared my confusion that even if I am not talking to Shreya I am not studying either. So its better to talk to her and and then i will be able to concentrate on studies may be.

But like all the twist and turns that our relation has been facing so far another twist happened and her dad came back and we were stopped from talking again for few days. Fuck now how would i survive these days, how would i study now, how how how ?

My exams were going very badly and more than that I was sad because i was not able to be with her & communicate with her. I knew she was alone and very scared Because soon her result will be out and she was afraid that if she scores badly she won't be able to come to Delhi and meet me.

She called me before her result and she was very tensed, not that she is a bad student and would fail but the tension was about scoring high because her second aim was getting into SRCC.

Her tension grew as the date of result came close and finally i was with her to share that tension. Thank God i didn't screw-up this time :-)